Waiting on a sign...

I suddenly feel a certain sense of apprehension to even want or have to start something new with Nemo. May be it wont even materialize, but since last evening I've been arrested with this feeling of fear. Fear of rejection or fear of indecisiveness or even the fear of commitment - I don't know. I should be going with the flow and taking things as they come, if they come that it. But I can't. My past doesn't let me and my personality isn't the laid-back-easy-going-type, my brain has a thousand thoughts whizzing through at any point of time - trampling all over each other vying for my attention. I guess I'm in the that median phase of can be or can't be and that's making me edgy - I reckon all I'm waiting for is a sign. 

Life comes full circle...eventually !

One of my closest friends , let's call her Speed,  is undergoing a bereavement - that of her grandfather. She travelled to the other end of the country to celebrate his birthday, which is today and unfortunately he passed away yesterday. Passing away a day before your birthday cannot epitomize having to come full circle anymore than it already does. 

My aunt or Cruella De Vil as we like to call her (due to her astounding personality of course) has fought with all her friends or rather her personality doesn't allow her to be friends with anyone for a long gestation period. She has to comb the town to invite people to "The Event", which is to take place in 10 days from today. After having most of her so-called friends decline the invite, she's gone back to where she started from, an old friend whom she hasn't seen or spoken to in years. Who isn't a patch on her socialite, hoity-toity, la-di-da variety yet she needs someone who why not go back to where you started from.

On my own personal front - I have a crush on someone I've known for the longest time. Nemo was someone I went to university with. I've had a crush on him back then too but it wasn't anything to write home about. Today, however, the dynamics have changed - he seems to be making him way to becoming a man of the world from the little confused frivolous boy he used to be and I have become more feminine, shedding my tom-boyish veil.  We seem to be sailing smooth alongside each other - not knowing how the ride will turn out I'm going to focus on enjoying the ride :) 

What I've conclude is that life has a funny way of coming back to where you start from. If not today - some day it will.

Hit-Or-Miss

So being the 1st of April and the beginning of a new month I have decided to start a new blog. Not just the usual pictures and a few thoughts here and there, which is what I do on Tumblr  (http://hit-or-miss.tumblr.com) but a real initiative to putting my thoughts down consecutively. So this is it ! 

Statutory Warning:  I consider myself to be a little bit of everything all rolled into one.  Being social, fun loving, outgoing and creative on one hand my personality is also contrasted with being sensitive, emotional, moody and stubborn. So while some days will be a hit and others a miss hopefully but most days, will be and should be better than others. Nonetheless, read and follow at your own risk. 

WELCOME TO MY WORLD :)